An Alaskan Update

Since the last time I graced the internet with my wonderful presence a whole lot of life has happened. I’m currently sitting in a small duplex in the heart of suburbia Anchorage, Alaska and here to stay for the next several years (well hopefully not in this duplex or this seat but Anchorage, yes.)

We ended up here through a series of seemingly small coincidences starting with Blairs wedding in Anchorage. I’m not terribly in the mood to go through ALL of it but all in all I came for Blair’s wedding, stayed with another friend’s aunt who happens to be a doctor opening up a new clinic with a few other doctors. They needed a clinic manager, I gave her Kerry’s email and before I was home from the wedding an interview was set up. The doctors fell in love with Kerry and despite him being pretty under qualified for the job they hired him. (We are talking DREAM job for a kid right out of school.) 8 weeks after Blairs wedding we moved to Anchorage. That’s the super super short version. If you’d like the long version give me a call.

We’ve been here a month and it’s been an ok month so far. We’ve spent most of it sick or not sleeping. It is very reminiscent of when Pratt was about 7 months old. (or hell, you can call it hell if you want.) It hasn’t been a great month but we are getting through. Most surprising to me is how difficult it’s been for me to transition from city to suburbs. I miss the busy, the vibe, my friends, the walking, the chatting with locals, the bus, running errands, the NOT getting in and out of the car a million times, and just the constant something to do. Did I mention missing the not getting in and out of the car a million times?

I know I know (I don’t know but I’m hoping) I’ll fall in love with it here. It is really great having a yard, being able to just walk out the door to throw the garbage out, taking groceries in the house, and having friends for Lou next door that Lou an just run over to. We have all discovered that Lou has a major love of snow and will spend an abnormal amount of time playing in it by her lonesome, so that’s a plus seeing how we’ll be having 7 months of winter. AND yesterday we saw 8 moose (meese? mossen? moose? mooses?) wondering around our neighborhood. That’s all I’ve got for now, I’m sure I’ll add to the list of good things in the next few months.

Nothing terribly exciting (minus the whole moving to Anchorage thing.) Hopefully I can keep up this blogging thing and keep you folks that care up to date on what’s going up here in the Last Frontier.

More (not iphone) photos soon! Oh, and I’m no longer on Facebook so if you want to keep informed on our goingsons a little more you can follow me on INSTAGRAM. 






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Blair and Eric’s Engagements

A stunning groom and bride up against towering majestic Alaskan mountains and billowing rivers, that’s what I photographed last week. IT WAS AMAZING! Lucky me the bride is my best friend and she also asked me to photograph her engagements a few months ago. Until I get her wedding images up, here are a few from her engagement session taken on antelope island in northern Utah. Enjoy!




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The Weekday Update

I am aching to blog and have a note book half full of ideas and thoughts for posts to prove it. Some day soon I’ll get the time. Here is a wrap up of our week for you family and friends that are interested:

Pratt is taking a morning nap! (and the heavens rejoiced and the Johnson mother cried tears of joy) That and he is feeling 100% back to himself after being sick for what felt like a month.

Kerry is now on his last quarter of grad school!!! He is now on a job search. He has really good contacts, an impressive resume, and a winning smile. We have no idea what’s going to happen. We could be moving in 3 months, no one knows.

Seattle is BEAUTIFUL right now. I can’t wait until summer and I’m going to be mostly sad if we do move and I don’t get to indulge in it.

THIS april fools joke made me laugh outloud. I used to work in an office. I’m giggling at the thought.

I’ve been following along a friends 30 day project. This is totally not something I typically do but… why not?

We instituted Friday homemade pizza night. It’s probably the greatest thing to happen to our family since Pratt got here. I highly recommend it. We try new crusts and sauces every week. I will tell you this peaches belong on pizza. TRY IT!

I’m trying out new meds. It’s a slow progression to get up to the full dose and we are praying they help my lows a little bit more than what I was on before. Cross your fingers for me. The “figuring out meds” game is so annoying.

We found board games for Lou that we LOVE. It’s a cooperative game and the best part is she can play with her friends without me regulating, she can even play by herself! We have THIS one and THIS one.

Pratt STILL isn’t walking. Not that I really care. It’s just funny that he took his first steps 2 months ago and now refuses to. The little bugger.;)

Maybe I’ll get to a little more in depth blogging this week with the bugger napping. We’ll see!





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a late night of too tired thoughts

mind is racing

yet feeling dead

too much

too little

not enough

and then there is the reminder of crying and the tugging and the “hold me” “feed me” “i want you” and more crying and more touching


but for now it is quiet

a moment of still


but the head spins

and the room is cluttered

and the dishes aren’t done

and behind it my fingers scream to unfasten the fury in my head

yet my mind and my emotions and my heart are






too tired to feel

to spill

to discover and let loose all that remains stifled and stilled behind the today of mom


so instead of a pencil

instead of a keyboard

instead of a paintbrush

i turn on the noise of the net to let it drown

the noise of movie trailers

the noise of social media

the noise of nonsense that only makes me feel more guilty

more ashamed

more resentful for not spilling the chaos and screaming

I am a person

I am me

I am alive


another moment of still

and the thought of pillows and deep comforting escape win


hello bed



maybe tomorrow the screaming fingers will be heard

maybe tomorrow





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Thank you! Her birthday was perfection!

Wow. Thank you!! When I put out a call for snail mail I had no idea so many people would respond. The entire week was magic. Lou got so many cards, a few treats, some packages, and far too many dollar bills. THANK YOU. Seriously. You made this girls birthday.

Sometimes, (a lot lately in my case) you need help as “Mom”. Lou’s birthday would not have been so great without all of you and I would have been a wreck feeling so much guilt over it. Thank you to the village for picking up my slack. I owe you. Really. Thank you.



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